So, it’s August now and a fair bit has gone on since I last posted anything here. I’ll split it into sections to make it easier for me to write.
As far as mental health things go, they are steadily improving. That said,I had my first 2 CBT sessions and, well, I cannot stand the worker that is meant to be helping me. I was anxious as hell when I went to the first appointment, which meant that I struggled with speech. She seemed to latch onto this and treated me like I was a 2 year old child. The only good thing that has come from it is that she has sent a letter trying to push for an autism assessment. Every cloud, yeah?
Also anxiety related, it is nowhere near as bad as it was last month. I can actually leave the flat on my own and am loving the freedom it gives me. Funny how things work in my head, I do wish I could just be stable for a bit and not have anxiety levels going up and down in a 3 month or so cycle.
Also, my mood is stable, which is of course awesome. I’m still having issues with my indecisiveness and getting started on things, but that’s something completely different.
Danni’s carers are erratic at best. On the days where we get “Favourite Carer” (Can you tell we like her?) it is not a big problem, but it’s the days where we have no idea who is coming or when because we don’t have a schedule and I’m struggling with the phone (yes, I still have that, I need to get over it) that are pushing Danni to the edge at the moment and causing her stress that she does not need. Even when we do get the schedule, sometimes the carers that arrive do not match and often arrive at totally different times to what has been said on the schedule. As you can guess, this is not good.
Danni also started Slimming World last week, so we are having a lot less takeaways and rubbish food. I’ve started cooking more exciting things! I’m also having to do a little bit of extra pushing so she can get to the meetings, but that is not a problem at all.
I’m starting to look at new phones for when my upgrade is up in November. So far there’s a good choice of Android phones but I think I want to wait until then to actually choose since there’ll be more, newer, faster ones released in that time.All said, though, I’m happy with the speed of my Desire now I have CyanogenMod on it and it is nicely slimmed down from the Sense rubbish.
I’m going to Manchester next week, for the TT-Forums meetup! We have arranged for Danni’s brother to look after her while I’m away, so I won’t have to worry about her all that much. Should be fun!
It was my dad’s 70th birthday on the 3rd, so we went down to Leeds in order to celebrate with him. We had a great time, though Danni overdid it loads.
It was our first wedding anniversary on the 13th! And where were we to celebrate, you ask? BarCamp! Unfortunately I got a 24 hour bug so couldn’t make the second day, but the first day was excellent – Powerpoint Karaoke and a Dr Horrible singalong in the evening, after a fantastic set of sessions from all involved. It was brilliant and I wish I could have made the second day.
All in All
So this past month has been a mixed bag – good in that my anxiety is better than it was and going to fun stuff is always good, but bad in that Danni’s carers are still not being reliable enough and me having a couple of really bad appointments with a woman I never want to see again. Oh well, I’ll take what I can get!